Thursday Thoughts

As a college student, every summer I am trying to find a job. The last three summers I have got very lucky and was able to stay with the same company. Lane Events Center, helping coordinate some of the entertainment for the Lane County Fair. I have absolutely loved doing this the past few years but this year some things came up and it was looking like I would not be going back. So I began my job search journey. 

Let me give you some background on Jesse's work experiences the past few summers. Up until last summer, Jesse had been going to Cooper Landing Alaska to be a fishing/rafting guide on the Kenai River. He did this for 4 summers. Talk about a dream job for a young guy. Last year after graduating with his bachelors degree he chose not to go back to Alaska and search for a job instead. Long story short he ended up applying for the Masters Program in Manufacturing engineering and was accepted so he came back to Oregon Tech with me this past fall. He has been stressing that he needs to find an internship to get some real world experience in the Engineering field. That is until he got a call from his old boss from Alaska Rivers Company who planted a tiny seed in his head for the idea of maybe coming back to work again as a fishing guide this summer. Jesse ran the idea past me that maybe we both move to Cooper Landing for the summer since I have no job either at this point. At the point he first said that, I don't think he meant as anything more then just a crazy idea. However, we began dreaming, being the dreamers & adventurers that we are, and decided why not? What's stopping us? Sure, there are cons to not being in Eugene with my family and friends this summer but we're only young once and it's only 3 months. It would be the experience of a lifetime. The following day Jesse called his boss back and talked details with him. He is suppose to be calling Jesse back any day now with some answers to find out if this is truly realistic for us. 

Here's the thing though, less than 5 minutes after Jesse got on the phone with his boss, I got a text message from my previous boss, asking if I would like to come back and work in the Lane Events Center again. All I can say is when it rains, it pours. Weather good or bad. One day we we're both stressing where we would be in a couple months and the next there are multiple choices arising. For now I am waiting to hear back from Jesse's boss to see what he has to say about hiring the both of us but man oh man is it stressful! There is a huge part of me that would LOVE to take off for Alaska and experience something new but a completely different part of me knows I would miss my family and friends. My 21st birthday is this July and it would be the first birthday in my life that I didn't spend with my family. I would miss our anual camping trips and family reunion. There is a bunch I would miss out on but I know I would make up for it with new experiences. It's just those "new experiences" are the unknown, which is what makes adventure but can also be a little scary sometimes. 

I know that it will all work out in the end and that whatever God's plan is for us will be. But.. That doesn't help me feel any less stressed right now. 

For I know the plans I have for you.

Jeremiah 29:11

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